We are constantly standing at a cross roads and I have no idea which way we will go. Today we had our first Kaylee bath and tucked her into an open cot. She is doing FANTASTIC today. Today we are talking upping feeds, trialling bolus feeds later this week, tentative sketches of what we will do when it comes time to transition home (still a few weeks away at this stage) and long term cardio monitoring etc. But we are also concious that if she fails to maintain saturation levels we could well be on an early trip to Melbourne. Things could go one way or the other and I don't really get a vote. I am here for the ride on the runaway train of Kaylee's needs. Except it is not out of control, it is just out of MY control.
So today, I am sitting back. I am munching on some yummy snacks. I am tackling the hefty pile of paperwork that I need to do. I am taking a break to read my novel, have a coffee with a friend (and a mars bar cheesecake!), drink deeply from God's Word, and surf online. I am enjoying my baby's first bath and revelling in her being in an open cot with no needles poking into her.
I will look forward to the blessings to come, and the worries - well - I'm leaving them where they belong.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34